How the book "Alcoholics
Anonymous" came about.
Bill Wilson speaking at Fort Worth, Texas 1954
I think I'm on
the bill for tonight's show with a talk on the 12 Traditions of A.A. But you
know drunks, like women, have the prerogative, or at least seize the prerogative
of changing their minds - I'm not going to make any such damn talk!
For something very festive I think the Traditions 1-12 would be a little too
grim, might bore you a little. As a matter of fact, speaking of Traditions, when
they were first written back there in 1945 or 1946 as tentative guides to help
us hang together and function, nobody paid any attention except a few "againsters"
who wrote me and asked what the hell are they about?
Nobody paid the slightest attention. But, little by little as these
Traditions got around we had our clubhouse squabbles, our little rifts, this
difficulty and that, it was found that the Traditions indeed did reflect
experience and were guiding principles.
So, they took hold a little more and a little more and a little more so that
today the average A.A. coming in the door learns at once what they're about,
about what kind of an outfit he really has landed in and by what principles his
group and A.A. as a whole are governed.
But, as I say, the dickens with all that. I would like to just spin some
yarn and they will be a series of yarns which cluster around the preparation of
the good old A.A. bible and when I hear that it always makes me shudder because
the guys who put it together weren't a damn bit biblical. I think sometimes some
of the drunks have an idea that these old timers went around with almost visible
halos and long gowns and they were full of sweetness and light. Oh boy, how
inspired they were, oh yes. But wait till I tell you.
I suppose the book yarn really started in the living room of Doc and Annie
Smith. As you know, I landed there in the summer of 1935, a little group caught
hold. I helped Smithy briefly with it and he went on to found the first A.A.
group in the world. And, as with all new groups, it was nearly all failure, but
now and then, somebody saw the light and there was progress.
Pampered, I got back to New York, a little more experienced group started
there, and by the time we got around to 1937, this thing had leaped over into
Cleveland, and began to move south from New York. But, it was still, we thought
in those years, flying blind, a flickering candle indeed, that might at any
moment be snuffed out.
So, on this late fall afternoon in
1937, Smithy and I were talking together in his living room, Anne sitting there,
when we began to count noses. How many people had stayed dry; in Akron, in New
York, maybe a few in Cleveland? How many had stayed dry and for how long? And
when we added up the total, it sure was a handful of, I don't know, 35 to 40
maybe. But enough time had elapsed on enough really fatal cases of alcoholism,
so that we grasped the importance of these small statistics.
Bob and I saw for the first time that this thing was going to succeed. That
God in his providence and mercy had thrown a new light into the dark caves where
we and our kind had been and were still by the millions dwelling. I can never
forget the elation and ecstasy that seized us both. And when we sat happily
talking and reflecting, we reflected, that well, a couple of score of drunks
were sober but this had taken three long years.
There had been an immense amount of failure and a long time had been taken
just to sober up the handful. How could this handful carry its message to all
those who still didn't know? Not all the drunks in the world could come to Akron
or New York.
But how could we transmit our message to them, and by what means? Maybe we
could go to the old timers in each group, but that meant nearly everybody, to
find the sum of money - somebody else's money, of course - and say to them "Well
now, take a sabbatical year off your job if you have one, and you go to
Kentucky, Omaha, Chicago, San Francisco and Los Angeles and wherever it may be
and you give this thing a year and get a group started."
It had already become evident by then that we were just about to be moved
out of the City Hospital in Akron to make room for people with broken legs and
ailing livers; that the hospitals were not too happy with us. We tried to run
their business perhaps too much, and besides, drunks were apt to be noisy in the
night and there were other inconveniences, which were all tremendous. So, it was
obvious that because of drunks being such unlovely creatures, we would have to
have a great chain of hospitals. And as that dream burst upon me, it sounded
good, because you see, I'd been down in Wall Street in the promotion business
and I remember the great sums of money that were made as soon as people got this
chain idea. You know, chain drug stores, chain grocery stores, chain dry good
stores.
That evening Bob and I told them that we were within sight of success and
that we thought this thing might go on and on and on, that a new light indeed
was shining in our dark world. But how could this light be a reflection and
transmitted without being distorted and garbled?
At this point, they turned the meeting over to me, and being a salesman, I
set right to work on the drunk tanks and subsidies for the missionaries, I was
pretty poor then.
We touched on the book. The group conscience consisted of 18 men good and
true ... and the good and true men, you could see right away, were dammed
skeptical about it all. Almost with one voice, they chorused "let's keep it
simple, this is going to bring money into this thing, this is going to create a
professional class. We'll all be ruined."
"Well," I countered, "That's a pretty good argument. Lots to what you say
... but even within gunshot of this very house, alcoholics are dying like flies.
And if this thing doesn't move any faster than it has in the last three years,
it may be another 10 before it gets to the outskirts of Akron. How in God's name
are we going to carry this message to others? We've got to take some kind of
chance. We can't keep it so simple it becomes an anarchy and gets complicated.
We can't keep it so simple that it won't propagate itself, and we've got to have
a lot of money to do these things."
So, exerting myself to the utmost, which was considerable in those days, we
finally got a vote in that little meeting and it was a mighty close vote by just
a majority of maybe 2 or 3. The meeting said with some reluctance, "Well Bill,
if we need a lot of dough, you better go back to New York where there's plenty
of it and you raise it."
Well, boy, that was the word that I'd been waiting for. So I scrammed back
to the great city and I began to approach some people of means describing this
tremendous thing that had happened. And it didn't seem so tremendous to the
people of means at all.
What? 35 or 40 drunks sober up? They have sobered them up before now, you
know. And besides, Mr. Wilson, don't you think it's kind of sweeping up the
shavings? I mean, wouldn't this be something for the Red Cross be better?
In other words, with all of my ardent solicitations, I got one hell of a
freeze from the gentlemen of wealth. Well, I began to get blue and when I begin
to get blue my stomach kicks up as well as other things.
I was laying in the bed one night with an imaginary ulcer attack (this used
to happen all the time - I had one the time the 12 steps were written) and I
said, "My God, we're starving to death here on Clinton Street." By this time the
house was full of drunks. They were eating us out of house and home. In those
days we never believed in charging anybody anything - so Lois was earning the
money, I was being the missionary and the drunks were eating the meals. "This
can't go on. We've got to have those drunk tanks, we've got to have those
missionaries, and we've got to have a book. That's for sure."
The next morning I crawled into my clothes and I called on my
brother-in-law. He's a doctor and he is about the last person who followed my
trip way down. The only one, save of course, the Lord. "Well," I said, "I'll go
up and see Leonard."
So I went up to see my brother-in-law Leonard and he pried out a little time
between patients coming in there. I started my awful bellyache about these rich
guys who wouldn't give us any dough for this great and glorious enterprise. It
seemed to me he knew a girl and I think she had an uncle that somehow tied up
with the Rockefeller offices. I asked him to call and see if there was such a
man and if there was, would he see us. On what slender threads our destiny
sometimes hangs.
So, the call was made. Instantly there came onto the other end of the wire
the voice of dear Willard Richardson - one of the loveliest Christian gentlemen
I have ever known. And the moment he recognized my brother-in'law he said, "Why
Leonard, where have you been all these years? "Well, my brother-in-law, unlike
me, is a man of very few words, so he quickly said to dear old Uncle Willard, he
had a brother-in-law who had apparently some success sobering up drunks and
could the two of us come over there and see him. "Why certainly," said dear
Willard. "Come right over."
So we go over to Rockefeller Plaza. We go up that elevator - 54 flights or
56 I guess it was, and we walk promptly into Mr. Rockefeller's personal offices,
and ask to see Mr. Richardson
Here sits this lovely, benign old gentleman, who nevertheless had a kind of
shrewd twinkle in his eye. So I sat down and told him about our exciting
discovery, this terrific cure for alcoholics that had just hit the world, how it
worked and what we have done for them. And, boy, this was the first receptive
man with money or access to money ' remember we were in Mr. Rockefeller's
personal offices at this point ' and by now, we had learned that this was Mr.
Rockefeller's closest personal friend.
So he said, "I'm very interested. Would you like to have lunch with me, Mr.
Wilson?" Well, now you know, for a rising promoter, that sounded pretty good -
going to have lunch with the best friends of John D. Things were looking up. My
ulcer attack disappeared. So I had lunch with the old gentleman and we went over
this thing again and again and, boy, he's so warm and kindly and friendly.
Right at the close of the lunch he said, "Well now Mr. Wilson or Bill, if I
can call you that, wouldn't you like to have a luncheon meeting with some of my
friends? There's Frank Amos, he's in the advertising business but he was on a
committee that recommended that Mr. Rockefeller drop the prohibition business.
And there's LeRoy Chipman, he looks after Mr. Rockefeller's real estate. And
there's Mr. Scotty, Chairman of the Board of the Riverside Church and a number
of other people like that. I believe they'd like to hear this story."
So a meeting was arranged and it fell upon a winter's night in 1937. And the
meeting was held at 30 Rockefeller Plaza. We called in, posthaste, a couple of
drunks from Akron - Smithy included, of course - heading the procession. I came
in with the New York contingent of four or five. And to our astonishment we were
ushered into Mr., Rockefeller's personal boardroom right next to his office. I
thought to myself "Well, now this is really getting hot." And indeed I felt very
much warmed when I was told by Mr. Richardson that I was sitting in a chair just
vacated by Mr. Rockefeller. I said "Well, now, we really are getting close to
the bankroll."
Old Doc Silkworth was there that night too, and he testified what he had
seen happen to these new friends of ours, and each drunk, thinking of nothing
better to say, told their stories of drinking and recovering and these folk
listened.
They seemed very definitely impressed. I could see that the moment for the
big touch was coming. So, I gingerly brought up the subject of the drunk tanks,
the subsidized missionaries, and the big question of a book or literature.
Well, God moves in mysterious ways, his wonders to perform. It didn't look
like a wonder to me when Mr. Scott, head of a large engineering firm and
Chairman of the Riverside Church, looked at us and said "Gentlemen, up to this
point, this has been the work of goodwill only. No plan, no property, no paid
people, just one carrying the good news to the next. Isn't that true? And may it
not be that that is where the great power of this society lies? Now, if we
subsidize it, might it not alter its' whole character? We want to do all we can,
we're gathered for that, but would it be wise?" Well then, the salesmen all gave
Mr. Scott the rush and we said, "Why, Mr. Scott, there're only 40 of us. It's
taken 3 years. Why millions, Mr. Scott, will rot before this thing ever gets to
'em unless we have money and lots of it."
And we made our case at last with these gentlemen for the
missionaries, the drunk tanks and the book. So one of them volunteered to
investigate us very carefully, and since poor old Dr. Bob was harder up than I
was, and since the first group and the reciprocal community was in Akron, we
directed their attention out there. Frank Amos, still a trustee in the
Foundation, at his own expense, got on a train, went out to Akron and made all
sorts of preliminary inquiries around town about Dr. Bob. All the reports were
good except that he was a drunk that recently got sober. He visited the little
meeting out there. He went to the Smith house and he came back with what he
thought was a very modest proposal.
He recommended to these friends of ours that we should have at least a token
amount of money at first, say $50,000, something like that. That would clear up
the mortgage on Smith's place. It would get us a little rehabilitation place. We
could put Dr. Smith in charge. We could subsidize a few of these people briefly,
until we got some more money. We could start the chain of hospitals. We'd have a
few missionaries. We could get busy on the book, all for a mere $50,000 bucks.
Well, considering the kind of money we were backed up against, that did
sound a little small, but, you know, one thing leads to another and it sounded
real good.
We were real glad. Mr. Willard Richardson, our original contact, then took
that report into John D. Jr. as everybody recalls. And I've since heard what
went on in there. Mr. Rockefeller read the report, called Willard Richardson and
thanked him and said: "Somehow I am strangely stirred by all this. This
interests me immensely." And then looking at his friend Willard, he said, "But
isn't money going to spoil this thing? I'm terribly afraid that it would. And
yet I am so strangely stirred by it."
Then came another turning point in our destiny. When that man whose business
is giving away money said to Willard Richardson, "No," he said, I won't be the
one to spoil this thing with money. You say these two men who are heading it are
a little 'stressed', I'll put $5,000 dollars in the Riverside Church treasury.
Those folks can form themselves into a committee and draw on it as they like. I
want to hear what goes on. But, please don't ask me for any more money."
Well, with 50 thousand that then was shrunk to five, we paid the mortgage on
Smithy's house for about three grand. That left two and Smith and I commenced
chewing on that too. Well, that was a long way from a string of drunk tanks and
books. What in thunder would we do? Well, we had more meetings with our newfound
friends, Amos, Richardson, Scott, Chipman and those fellows who stuck with us to
this day, some of them now gone.
And, in spite of Mr. Rockefeller's advice, we again convinced these folks
that this thing needed a lot of money. What could we do without it? So, one of
them proposed, "Well, why don't we form a foundation, something like the
Rockefeller Foundation?"
I said, "I hope it will be like that with respect to money."
And then one of them got a free lawyer from a firm who was interested in the
thing. And we all asked him to draw up an agreement of trust, a charter for
something to be called the Alcoholic Foundation. Why we picked that one, I don't
know. I don't know whether the Foundation was alcoholic, it was the Alcoholic
Foundation, not the Alcoholics Foundation.
And the lawyer was very much confused because in the meeting which formed
the Foundation, we made it very plain that we did not wish to be in the
majority. We felt that there should be non-alcoholics on the board and they
ought to be in a majority of one.
"Well, indeed," said the lawyer, "What is the difference between an
alcoholic and a non-alcoholic?"
And one of our smart drunks said, "That's a cinch, a non-alcoholic is a guy
who can drink and an alcoholic is a guy who can't drink."
"Well," said the lawyer, "how do we state that legally?" We didn't know. So
at length, we have a foundation and a board which I think then was about seven,
consisting of four of these new friends, including my brother-in-law, Mr.
Richardson, Chipman, Amos and some of us drunks. I think Smithy went on the
board but I kind of coyly stayed off it thinking it would be more convenient
later on.
So we had this wonderful new foundation. These friends, unlike Mr.
Rockefeller, were sold on the idea that we needed a lot of dough, and so our
salesmen around New York started to solicit some money, again, from the very
rich. We had a list of them and we had credentials from friends of Mr. John D.
Rockefeller. "How could you miss, I ask you, salesmen?" The Foundation had been
formed in the spring of 1938 and all summer we solicited the rich.
Well, they were either in Florida or they preferred the Red Cross, or some
of them thought that drunks were disgusting and we didn't get one damn cent in
the whole summer of 1938, praise God!
Well, meantime, we began to hold trustee meetings and they were
commiseration sessions on getting no dough. What with the mortgage and with me
and Smithy eating away at it, the five grand had gone up the flu, and we were
all stone broke again.
Smithy couldn't get his practice back either because he was a surgeon and
nobody likes to be carved up by an alcoholic surgeon - even if he was three
years sober.
So things were tough all around, no fooling.
Well, what would we do?
One day, probably in August 1938, I produced at a Foundation meeting, a
couple of chapters of a proposed book along with some recommendations of a
couple of doctors down at John Hopkins to try to put the bite on the rich. And
we still had these two book chapters kicking around. Frank Amos said, "Well now,
I know the religious editor down there at Harpers, an old friend of mine, Gene
Exman." He said, "Why don't you take these two book chapters, your story and the
introduction to the book, down there and show them to Gene and see what he
thinks about them."
So I took the chapters down. To my great surprise, Gene who was to become a
great friend of ours, looked at the chapters and said, "Why Mr. Wilson, could
you write a whole book like this?"
"Well, I said, "Sure, sure." There was more talk about it. I guess he went
in and showed it to Mr. Canfield, the big boss, and another meeting was had. The
upshot was that Harpers intimated that they would pay me as the budding author,
15 hundred in advance royalties, bringing enough money in to enable me to finish
the book. I felt awful good about that. It made me feel like I was an author or
something. I felt real good about it but after awhile, not so good.
Because I began to reason, and so did the other boys, if this guy Wilson
eats up the 15 hundred bucks while he's doing this book, after the book gets
out, it will take a long time to catch up. And if this thing gets him publicity,
what are we going to do with the inquiries? And, after all, what's a lousy 10%
royalty anyway?
The $15 hundred still looked pretty big to me. Then we thought too, now
here's a fine publisher like Harpers, but if this book when done, should prove
to be the main textbook for A.A., why would we want our main means of
propagation in the hands of somebody else? Shouldn't we control this thing?
At this point, the book project really began. I had a guy helping me on this
thing who had red hair and ten times my energy and he was some promoter [Hank
Parkhurst].
He said, "Bill, this is something, come on with me."
We walk into a stationary store, we buy a pad of blank stock certificates
and we write across the top of them 'Works Publishing Company'- Par Value 25
Dollars.
So we take the pad of these stock certificates, (of course we didn't bother
to incorporate it, that didn't happen for several more years) we took this pad
of stock certificates to the first A.A. meeting where you shouldn't mix money
with spirituality.
We said to the drunks "look, this thing is gonna be a cinch. Parkhurst will
take a third of this thing for services rendered. I, the author will take a
third for services rendered, and you can have a third of these stock
certificates par 25 if you'll just start paying up on your stock. If you only
want one share, it's only five dollars a month, 5 months, see?"
And the drunks all gave us this stony look that said, "What the hell, you
mean to say you're only asking us to buy stock in a book that you ain't written
yet?"
"Why sure," we said "If Harpers will put money in this thing why shouldn't
you? Harpers said it's gonna be a good book."
But the drunks still gave us this stony stare. We had to think up some more
arguments. "We've been looking at pricing costs of the books, boys. We get a
book here, ya know, 400 or 450 pages, it ought to sell for about $3.50."
Now back in those days we found on inquiry from the printers that that $3.50
book could be printed for 35 cents making a 1,000% profit. Of course, we didn't
mention the other expenses, just the printing costs. "So boys, just think on it,
when these books move out by the carload we will be printing them for 35 cents
and we'll be selling them direct mail for $3.50. How can you lose?"
The drunks still gave us this stony stare. No salt. Well, we figured we had
to have a better argument than that. Harpers said it was a good book, you can
print them for 35 cents and sell them for $3.50, but how are we going to
convince the drunks that we could move carload lots of them? Millions of
dollars.
So we get the idea we'll go up to the Readers Digest, and we got an
appointment with Mr. Kenneth Paine, the managing editor there. Gee, I'll never
forget the day we got off the train up at Pleasantville and were ushered into
his office. We excitedly told him the story of this wonderful budding society.
We dwelled upon the friendship of Mr. Rockefeller and Harry Emerson Fosdick. You
know we were traveling in good company with Pain. The society, by the way, was
about to publish a textbook, then in the process of being written and we were
wondering, Mr. Paine, if this wouldn't be a matter of tremendous interest to the
Reader's Digest? Having in mind of course that the Reader's Digest has a
circulation of 12 million readers and if we could only get a free ad of this
coming book in the Digest we really would move something, ya see?
"Well," Mr. Paine said, "this sounds extremely interesting, I like this
idea, why I think it'll be an absolutely ideal piece for the Digest. How soon do
you think this new book will be out Mr. Wilson?" I said, "We've got a couple of
chapters written, ahem, if we can get right at it, Mr. Paine, uh, you know, uh,
probably uh, this being October, we ought to get this thing out by April or next
May.
"Why," Mr. Paine said, "I'm sure the Digest would like a thing like this.
Mr. Wilson, I'll take it up with the editorial board, and when the time is right
and you get already to shoot, come up and we'll put a special feature writer on
this thing and we'll tell all about your society."
And then my promoter friend said, "But Mr. Paine, will you mention the new
book in the piece?"
"Yes," said Mr. Paine, "we will mention the book."
Well, that was all we needed, we went back to the drunks and said, "now
look, boys, there are positively millions in this ' how can you miss? Harpers
says its going to be a good book. We buy them for 35 cents from the printer, we
sell them for $3.50 and the Reader's Digest is going to give us a free ad in
its' piece and boys, those books will move out by the carload. How can you miss?
And after all, we only need 4 or 5 thousand bucks."
So we began to sell the shares of Works Publishing, not yet incorporated,
par value $25 and at $5 per month to the poor people. Some people bought as
little as one and one guy bought 10 shares. We sold a few shares to
non-alcoholics and my promoter friend who was to get one-third interest was a
very important man in this transaction because he went out and kept collecting
the money from the drunks so that little Ruthie Hock and I could keep working on
the book and Lois could have some groceries (even though she was still working
in that department store).
So, the preparation started and some more chapters were done and we went to
A.A. meetings in New York with these chapters in the rough. It wasn't like
chicken-in-the-rough; the boys didn't eat those chapters up at all. I suddenly
discovered that I was in this terrific whirlpool of arguments. I was just the
umpire - I finally had to stipulate:
"Well boys, over here you got the Holly Rollers who say we need all the good
old-fashioned stuff in the book, and over here you tell me we've got to have a
psychological book, and that never cured anybody, and they didn't do very much
with us in the missions, so I guess you will have to leave me just to be the
umpire. I'll scribble out some roughs here and show them to you and let's get
the comments in."
So we fought, bled and died our way through one chapter after another. We
sent them out to Akron and they were peddled around and there were terrific
hassles about what should go in this book and what should not.
Meanwhile, we set drunks up to write their stories or we had newspaper
people to write the stories for them to go in the back of the book. We had an
idea that we'd have a text and all and then we'd have stories all about the
drunks who were staying sober.
Then came that night when we were up around Chapter 5. As you know I'd gone
on about myself, which was natural after all. And then the little introductory
chapter and we dealt with the agnostic and we described alcoholism, but, boy, we
finally got to the point where we really had to say what the book was all about
and how this deal works.
I told you this was a six-step program then. On this particular
evening, I was lying in bed on Clinton Street wondering what the deuce this next
chapter would be about. The idea came to me, well, we need a definite statement
of concrete principles that these drunks can't wiggle out of. Can't be any
wiggling out of this deal at all. And this six-step program had two big gaps
in-between they'll wiggle out of. Moreover if this book goes out to distant
readers, they have to have got to have an absolutely explicit program by which
to go.
This was while I was thinking these thoughts, while my imaginary ulcer was
paining me and while I was mad as hell at these drunks because the money was
coming in too slow. Some had the stock and weren't paying up. A couple of guys
came in and they gave me a big argument and we yelled and shouted and I finally
went down and laid on the bed with my ulcer and I said, "poor me."
There was a pad of paper by the bed and I reached for that and said "you've
got to break this program up into small pieces so they can't wiggle out. So I
started writing, trying to bust it up into little pieces. And when I got the
pieces set down on that piece of yellow paper, I put numbers on them and was
rather agreeably surprised when it came out to twelve.
I said, "That's a good significant figure in Christianity and mystic lore.
"Then I noticed that instead of leaving the God idea to the last, I'd got it up
front but I didn't pay much attention to that, it looked pretty good.
Well, the next meeting comes along; I'd gone on beyond the steps trying to
amplify them in the rest of that chapter to the meeting and boy, pandemonium
broke loose.
"What do you mean by changing the program.. .what about this, what about
that, this thing is overloaded with God. We don't like this, you've got these
guys on their knees'. stand them up!"
A lot of these drunks are scared to death of being Godly'.
let's take God out
of it entirely."
Such were the arguments that we had. Out of that terrific hassle came the
Twelve Steps. That argument caused the introduction of the phrase which has been
a lifesaver to thousands....it was certainly none of my doing. I was on the
pious side then, you see, still suffering from this big hot flash of mine.
The idea of "God as you understand Him" came out of that perfectly ferocious
argument and we put that in.
Well, little by little things ground on, little by little the drunks put in
money and we kept an office open in Newark, which was the office of a defunct
business where I tried to establish my friend.
The money ran lo at times and Ruthie Hock worked for no pay. We gave her
plenty of stock in the Works Publishing of course. All you had to do is tear it
off the pay, par 25 have a week's salary, dear.
So, we got around to about January 1939. Somebody said "hadn't we better
test this thing out; hadn't we better make a pre-publication copy, a multilith
or mimeographed copy of this text and a few of the personal stories that had
come in - try it out on the preacher, on the doctor, the Catholic Committee on
Publications, psychiatrists, policemen, fishwives, housewives, drunks,
everybody. Just to see if we've got anything that goes against the grain
anyplace and also to find out if we can't get some better ideas here?"
So at considerable expense, we got this pre-publication copy made; we
peddled it around and comments came back, some of them very helpful. It went,
among other places, to the Catholic Committee on Publications in New York and at
that time we had only one Catholic member to take it there and he had just
gotten out of the asylum and hadn't had anything to do with preparing the book.
The book passed inspection and the stories came in. Somehow we got them
edited, somehow we got the galleys together. We got up to the printing time.
Meanwhile, the drunks had been kind of slow on those subscription payments
and a little further on I was able to go up to Charlie Towns where old Doc
Silkworth held forth. Charlie believed in us so we put the slug on to Charlie
for $2,500 bucks.
Charlie didn't want any stocks, he wanted a promissory note on the book not
yet written. So, we got the $2,500 from Charlie routed around through the
Alcoholic Foundation so that it could be tax exempt. Also, we had blown $6,000
in these 9 months in supporting the 3 of us in an office and the till was
getting low.
We still had to get this book printed. So, we go up to Cornwall Press, which
is the largest printer in the world, where we'd made previous inquiries and we
asked about printing and they said they'd be glad to do it and how many books
would we like? We said that was hard to estimate. Of course our membership is
very small at the present time and we wouldn't sell many to the membership but
after all, the Readers Digest is going to print a plug about it to its' 2
million readers. This book should go out in carloads when it's printed.
The printer was none other than dear old Mr. Blackwell, one of our Christian
friends and Mr. Blackwell said "How much of a down payment are you going to
make? How many books would you like printed?"
"Well," we said "we'll be conservative, let's print 5,000 just to start
with."
Mr. Blackwell asked us what we were going to use for money. We said that we
wouldn't need much; just a few hundred dollars on account would be all right. I
told you, after all, we're traveling in very good company, friends of Mr.
Rockefeller and all that.
So, Blackwell started printing the 5,000 books; the plates were made and the
galleys were read. Gee, all of a sudden we thought of the Reader's Digest, so we
go up to there, walk in on Mr. Kenneth Paine and say "We're all ready to shoot."
And Mr. Paine replies "Shoot what - Oh yes, I remember you two, Mr.
Parkhurst and Mr. Wilson. You gentlemen were here last fall, I told you the
Reader's Digest would be interested in this new work and in your book. Well,
right after you were here, I consulted our editorial board and to my great
surprise they didn't like the idea at all and I forgot to tell you!"
Oh boy, we had the drunks with $5,000 bucks in it, Charlie Towns hooked for
$2,500 bucks and $2,500 on the cuff with the printer. There was $500 left in the
bank...what in the duce would we do?
Morgan Ryan, the good-looking Irishman who had taken the book over to the
Catholic Committee on Publication, had been in an earlier time a good ad man.
He said that he knew Gabriel Heatter. "Gabriel is putting on these 3 minute
heart to heart programs on the radio. I'll get an interview with him and maybe
he'll interview me on the radio about all this," said Ryan.
So, our spirits rose once again. Then all of a sudden we had a big chill,
suppose this Irishman got drunk before Heatter interviewed him? So, we went to
see Heatter and lo and behold, Heatter said he would interview him and then we
got still more scared. So, we rented a room in the downtown Athletic Club and we
put Ryan in there with a day and night guard for ten days.
Meanwhile, our spirits rose again. We could see those books just going out
in carloads. Then my promoter friend said "Look, there should be a follow-up on
a big thing like this here interview. It'll be heard all over the
country'national network. I think folks that are the market for this book are
the doctors...the physicians. I suggest that we pitch the last $500 that we have
in the treasury on a postal card shower, which will go to every physician east
of the Rocky Mountains. On this postal card we'll say "Hear all about Alcoholics
Anonymous on Gabriel Heatter's Program - spend $3.50 for the book Alcoholics
Anonymous, sure-cure for alcoholism."
So, we spent the last $500 on the postal card shower and mailed them out.
They managed to keep Ryan sober although he since hasn't made it. All the
drunks had their ears glued to the radio. The group market in Alcoholics
Anonymous was already saturated because you see, we had 49 stockholders and
they'd all gotten a book free, then we had 28 guys with stories and they all got
a free book. So we had run out of the A.A. books. But we could see the book
moving out in carloads to these doctors and their patients.
Sure enough, Ryan is interviewed. Heatter pulled out the old tremolo stop
and we could see the book orders coming back in carloads.
Well, we just couldn't wait to go down to old Post Office Box 658, Church
Street Annex, the address printed in the back of the old books. We hung at it
for about three days and then my friends Hank and Ruthie Hock and I went over
and we looked in Box 658. It wasn't a locked box; you just looked through the
glass. We could see that there were a few of these postal cards. I had a
terrible sinking sensation. But my friend the promoter said "Bill, they can't
put all those cards in the box, they've got bags full of it out there."
We go to the clerk and he brings out 12 lousy postal cards, 10 of them were
completely illegible, written by doctors, druggists, and monkeys? We had exactly
two orders for the book Alcoholics Anonymous and we were absolutely and utterly
stone-broke.
The Sheriff then moved in on the office, poor Mr. Blackwell wondered what to
do for money and felt like taking the book over at that very opportune moment,
the house which Lois and I lived in was foreclosed and we and our furniture were
set out on the street. Such was the state of the book Alcoholics Anonymous and
the state of grace the Wilson's were in the summer of 1939.
Moreover, a great cry went up from the drunks, "What about our $4,500?" Even
Charlie (Towns) who was pretty well off was a little uneasy about the note for
$2,500. What would we do? What could we do? We put our goods in storage on the
cuff; we couldn't even pay the drayman. An A. A. lent us his summer camp,
another A.A. lent us his car, the folks around New York began to pass the hat
for groceries for the Wilson's and supplied us with $50 per month. So, we had a
lot of discontented stockholders, $50 bucks a month, a summer camp and an
automobile with which to revive the failing fortunes of the book Alcoholics
Anonymous.
We began to shop around from one magazine to another asking if they would
give us some publicity, nobody bit and it looked like the whole dump was going
to be foreclosed; book, office, Wilson's, everything.
One of the boys in New York happened to be a little bit prosperous at the
time and he had a fashionable clothing business on Fifth Avenue which we learned
was mostly on mortgage, having drunk nearly all of it up. His name was Bert
Taylor. I went up to Bert one day and I said "Bert, there is a promise of an
article in Liberty Magazine, I just got it today but it won't come out until
next September. It's going to be called 'Alcoholics and God' and will be printed
by Fulton Oursler the editor of Liberty Magazine. Bert, when that piece is
printed, these books will go out in carload lots. We need $1,000 bucks to get us
through the summer."
Bert asked, "Well, are you sure that the article is going to be printed?"
"Oh yes," I said, "that's final."
He said, "O.K., I haven't got the dough but there's this man down in
Baltimore, Mr. Cochran, he's a customer of mine...he buys his pants in here. Let
me call him up."
Bert gets on long-distance with Mr. Cochran in Baltimore, a very wealthy
man, and says to him "Mr. Cochran, from time to time I mentioned this alcoholic
fellowship to which I belong. Our fellowship has just come out with a
magnificent new textbook.. .a sure cure for alcoholism... .Mr. Cochran, this is
something we think every public library in America should have, and Mr. Cochran,
the retail price of the book is $2.50. Mr. Cochran, if you'll just buy a couple
of thousand of those books and put them in the large libraries, of course we
would sell them for that purpose at a considerable discount."
Mr. Cochran, some publicity will come out next fall about this new book
Alcoholics Anonymous, but in the meantime, these books are moving slowly and we
need, say, $1,000 to tide us over. Would you loan the Works Publishing Company
this?"
Mr. Cochran asked what the balance sheet of the Works Publishing Company
looked like and after he learned what it looked like he said "no thanks."
So Bert then said, "Now Mr. Cochran, you know me. Would you loan the money
to me on the credit of my business?"
"Why certainly," Mr. Cochran said, "send me down your note." So Bert hocked
the business that a year or two later was to go broke anyway and saved the book
Alcoholics Anonymous. The thousand dollars lasted until the Liberty article came
out.
Eight hundred inquiries came in as a result of that, we moved a few books
and we barely squeaked through the year 1939. In all this period we heard
nothing from John D. Rockefeller when all of a sudden, in about February, 1940,
Mr. Richardson came to a trustees meeting of the Foundation and announced that
he had great news.
We were told that Mr. Rockefeller, whom we had not heard from since 1937,
had been watching us all this time with immense interest. Moreover, Mr.
Rockefeller wanted to give this fellowship a dinner to which he would invite his
friends to see the beginnings of this new and promising start.
Mr. Richardson produced the invitation list. Listed were the President of
Chase Bank, Wendell Wilkie, and all kinds of very prominent people, many of them
extremely rich. I mean, after a quick look at the list I figured it would add up
to a couple of billion dollars. So, we felt maybe at least, you know, there
would be some money in sight. So, the dinner came, and we got Harry Emerson
Fosdick who had reviewed the A.A. book and he gave us a wonderful plug. Dr.
Kennedy came and spoke on the medical attitudes. He'd seen a patient of his, a
very hopeless gal, Marty Mann, recover. I got up, talked about life among the "anonymie,"
and the bankers assembled 75 strong and in great wealth, sat at the tables with
the alcoholics.
The bankers had come probably for some sort of command performance and they
were a little suspicious that perhaps this was another prohibition deal, but
they warmed up under the influence of the alcoholics.
Mr. Ryan, the hero of the Heatter episode and still sober, was asked at his
table by a distinguished banker, "Why, Mr. Ryan, we presumed you were in the
banking business."
Ryan says, "not at all sir, I just got out of Great Stone Asylum."
Well, that intrigued the bankers and they were all warming up.
Unfortunately, Mr. Rockefeller couldn't get to the dinner. He was quite sick
that night so he sent his son, a wonderful gent, Nelson Rockefeller, in his
place instead.
After the show was over and everyone was in fine form, we were all ready
again for the big touch. Nelson Rockefeller got up and speaking for his father
said, "My father sends word that he is so sorry that he cannot be here tonight,
but is so glad that so many of his friends can see the beginnings of this great
and wonderful thing. Something that affected his life more than almost anything
that had crossed his path."
A stupendous plug that was! Then Nelson said, "Gentlemen, this is a work
that proceeds on good will. It requires no money." Whereupon, the 2 billion
dollars got up and walked out. That was a terrific letdown, but we weren't let
down for too long.
Again, the hand of Providence had intervened. Right after dinner, Mr.
Rockefeller asked that the talks and pamphlets be published.
He approached the rather defunct Works Publishing Company and said he would
like to buy 400 books to send to all of the bankers who had come to the dinner
and to those who had not.
Seeing that this was for a good purpose, we let him have the books cheap. He
bought them cheaper than anybody has since. We sold 400 books to John D.
Rockefeller Jr. for one buck apiece to send to his banker friends. He sent out
the books and pamphlets and with it, he wrote a personal letter and signed every
dog gone one of them.
In this letter he stated how glad he was that his friends had been able to
see the great beginning of what he thought would be a wonderful thing, how
deeply it had affected him and then he added (unfortunately) "gentlemen, this is
a work of goodwill. It needs little, if any, money. I am giving these good
people $1,000." So, the bankers all received Mr. Rockefeller's letter and
counted it up on the cuff. Well, if John D. is giving $1,000, me with only a few
million should send these boys about $10! One who had an alcoholic relative in
tow sent us $300. So, with Mr. Rockefeller's $1,000 plus the solicitation of all
the rest of these bankers, we got together the princely sum of $3,000 which was
the first outside contribution of the Alcoholic Foundation.
The $3,000 was divided equally between Smithy and me so that we could keep
going somehow. We solicited that dinner list for 5 years and got about $3,000 a
year for 5 years.
At the end of that time, we were able to say to Mr. Rockefeller, "We don't
need any more money. The book income is helping to support our office, the
groups are contributing to fill in and the royalties are taking care of Dr. Bob
and Bill Wilson."
Now you see Mr. Rockefeller's decision not to give us money was a blessing.
He gave of himself. He gave of himself when he was under public ridicule for his
views about alcohol. He said to the whole world "this is good." The story went
out on the wires all over the world. People ran into the bookstores to get the
new book and boy, we really began to get some book orders. An awful lot of
inquiries came into the little office at Vessy Street. The book money began to
pay Ruth.
We hired one more to help. There was Ruthie, another gal and me. And then
came Jack Alexander with his terrific article in the Saturday Evening Post. Then
an immense lot of inquiries... .6,000 or 7,000 of them. Alcoholics Anonymous had
become a national institution.
Such is the story of the preparation of the book Alcoholics Anonymous and of
its subsequent effect, you all have some notion. The proceeds of that book have
repeatedly saved the office in New York. But, it isn't the money that has come
out of it that matters, it is the message that it carried. That transcended the
mountains and the sea and is even at this moment, is lighting candles in dark
caverns and on distant beaches.
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